Sad

Sometimes... I can be smart, but can be very stupid.

Sometimes... I can be very sensitive, but can be very dull and thick.

Sometimes... I can be very carefull, but sometimes I can be very careless.

Well that's me... I am not proud but I don't feel bad about myself.

Positive and Negative things are in me, sometimes I can handle them, but sometimes I can be overwhelmed by them. I think, that is natural. No one shall blame me.

But once I hurt my lover... then I feel guilty. I feel dejected by my own immorality. No reason for me not to blame myself. I deserve to be sad and lonely.

Feeling

This is my first English writing, as I consider that my English is very shallow.

This type of feeling is very strange and awkward.... I have never felt this before.

When it comes for the first time you touch woman face, you would feel the need to caress her cheek softly and pet her hair gently. Then again... another different feeling comes. You feel the need to protect her, to hold her tightly, to defend her from any possibility of dangerous thing.

When you touch their eyes... again, another funny feeling appears! You think that she is your own daughter. You do the best to make her happy at very exact time, though sometime you don't know how to do that. Then you just put your right hand on her head, and try to clear up her hair whilst your left hand try to make her palm warmer (because this is a very cold night)... and hope she is happy with what you have done.

When you touch her mouth... you feel like that you want her to kiss you, because you don't want to trespass her personal space. You would feel that you are the luckiest guy in the universe that she agree with your demand.

You don't make it, and you will never make it. Those things happen only with her approval, that happen only if she wants it.

Always respect women. Admire them like you admire your teacher, and love them like the way you love yourself.

Namaste.